Well, today was an ok day. Kristin came into work and i asked her why she was talking shit about me, well, i guess you could say that i yelled at her, cause cody works at subway and he heard it. But, we got all that shit settled. Then this dumbass guy came in and yelled at me. Now i'm sitting at home, Nikki just left and Michael is passed out in the living room on our couch. I feel and look like death. I thought i was tierd, so i went and layed with Michael but i couldn't sleep. I'm just not in a good mood, but i'm not in a bad mood. I just don't know what i'm feeling. I want so much from Michael, but he can give me the attention that i need cause he wakes up and goes to work at 9. I wake up at 11 and go to class then head to work. He gets off at 6, comes home and watches tv. I come home at 9, we usually go get something to eat or go get ice cream or something. We then come home and go to bed, it is the same thing everyday. I usually look forward to Sunday's cause we both have that day off. I know that he loves me, but sometimes i think he doesn't. It might just be because we never see each other and the only time we do is late at night. I wanna be happy, but it's hard. It feels like i have no friends cause i never have time to talk or hang out with them anymore. Well, what friends i have since i seemed to lose them when i was with brian cause i wasn't allowed to hang out with them. I'm not trying to make it sound like I have a bad life, cause i don't. I am just always so busy, that it makes me feel that my life sucks. I mean, going to Meijer at 2 in the morning 5 days a week gets old. I think that I just need to get out of Middletucky, We have a mall, walmart Meijer, and a bowling alley. I need some place that offers me more then the same thing that I have had for the past 18 years of my life! I want to move somewhere nice, Michael and I was talking about Michigan. But i could never leave my family so i guess that i am stuck in this shit hole forever!! And i sure as hell do not want to work at the towne mall for the rest of my life!! I want to have kids and show them more then what i have been shown. But, i'm going to stop bitching now, for some reason i'm crying. Oh well life goes on...